I'm a helpless romantic, So What?

I'm Back

Hey, guys, I've been off for a couple weeks due to a terrible sickness I that had me in bed in pain for most of the time. But Thank God I'm back now! I missed you can't lie hahaha. I'm back to make you laugh, relate, and just share my experiences.

So, I started this year single, and YES, SINGLE. It was the best decision I've ever made. I won't lie, it took me some time to actually realize how toxic and painful my relationships end up to be. Sometimes because we are so full of the lies and the wonders of that special being that we don't see how much pain they put us through. 
I know that at least one time in your lives you have fallen in love with the wrong person that just trick you into believing how real can the feeling be, but they don't even go the extra mile for you. My girls can relate to this is not easy to actually find a guy that will stay for the right reasons. My boys can relate that is really hard to find a gal that will not just be interested in how much can they get out of the relationship. For the good or the bad reasons, you end up getting hurt.

Love yourself?

Love yourself they say even Justin Bieber sings it. But when I think about this I have come to the conclusion that is not that I don't love myself the real problem is that I'm helpless when it comes to caring, loving, and I'm the worst at pretending.
My best friend once told me: "It's not that is something wrong with you, you just have a big heart".

A BIG HEART?

It is medically not right to have a big heart, but how did I end up having a metaphorically BIG HEART. After thinking about it couple of days I realize that is true. My life goes around what I can do for others and how can I make others happy that I forgot when it was my time to be less heartbroken, less disappointed and just happier with myself!

I might be a helpless romantic because I see the details that others don't see, and getting hurt and feeling pain is just part of it. But when you like me realize all this you will find the light at the end of the tunnel, and it is not that bad anymore.

Don't get me wrong is not that I'm going to stop caring or loving the people around me. I'm just going to start falling in love with myself and THE WONDER OF BEING ME! No matter who comes along next, loving myself and doing things for myself is the right type loneliness I need in my life.


"Be happy for this moment, this moment is your life".   -Omar Khayyam

Yours truly,

María