New Love, New Adventures

Hey guys! is yours truly A Girl with a Plan.
I'm coming back more renewed than ever. I want to start off by saying, I'm In Love. Yes, I know it sounds funny but it's true. I'm in love the only difference is that this time I have fallen for no one else but myself.

Changes...

After acknowledging there were a couple of things I had to change about myself, and just because changing is good I decided to give it a try.

As many of you may know last fall I traveled to the USA to spend a semester there. Leaving my home, family, and back then boyfriend was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I thought that my relationship with my ex-was fireproof, but I was mistaken. As the weeks passed that relationship became more toxic, controlling, and disastrous. I was in a foreigner country and whom I thought was my rock was nothing else but a small pebble. I started drifting away from it and decided to end it for good. I was hurt and in pain, but I said to myself won't let this rule the rest of my time here.

It was time to start living like it was the last day of my life. What I didn't know then was through how much harm and pain I was putting myself to.

That's how I met this amazing, smart, I still can't find enough words to describe him; he was perfect. He treated me like nobody else had ever treated me before. As the complicated human being that I am, I started struggling with my feelings and emotions. Let's be serious what not to love about him, but the reality was I had to go back.

This story is not about him or about my ex, this story is about myself.

After coming back home and acknowledging I was fooled and let it happen. I entered into a deep stage of depression. I lost my pet, hope, and anything I thought love was at that time. I was sad an cried over the most stupid things if I watched a TV show or heard a song on Spotify the effect was the same. I was housebound and due to this, I stopped taking care of myself. It was until one night I had a dream that changed everything for me.

I remember waking up the next morning and telling my mom that I wanted to enroll myself in a gym because I wanted to change my life.

The New Lifestyle

That's how it all started. I gave the workout a chance and with each week I  challenged myself to do better. With this, I started a daily healthy diet meal plan which everything that I ate in a day had to be up to 1200 calories. My goal was to lose 29 pounds. FYI: Back then I weighed 129 lbs and for a 4'11" tall person is almost getting overweight.

I accompany my workout and healthy eating with empowerment therapy. With my life coach, I discovered that what I felt, the loneliness, the sadness, and the rejection came from me not coping well with grief. Nobody else besides my bunny died, but grief as in losing someone special like my ex-boyfriend and not just that but all the shit he put me through all those months.

Now that I knew what my problem was I started working on it. I'm not going to lie but feeling comfortable in your own skin is pretty hard.

Today almost four months since I came back home, I feel proud of the empowered woman I've become. Up to now, I've lost 19 lbs in the first two months of training. I became light of my life and to everyone else that needs a little bit of brightness in their lives.

From ME to YOU

I know that whether you are a woman or a man, an adult or teen going through rough times it's pretty difficult, and it's not easy sometimes accepting everything that happens to us. My message to you is to believe and trust the process. 

God's timing is always perfect and you are going to make it through. You know why? Because no matter who you are I Love You and I Believe you can do whatever you set yourself to do.

You can find me on every social media if you ever want to talk, I can help you through this process. You are not alone. #itsnotveryet

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Email: maria.teresa.bernal06@gmail.com

“Grief does not change you. It reveals you.” ― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

Yours truly,

Maria